I get really wound up when people say things before thinking them through and try and make others feel like they are insignificant......And cause un-necessary paranoia. Grrrr and my back hurts. Probably cause am feeling tension right now.
My beef at the moment is why can't I sleep and why do I feel hungry even though its just after I ate. Its all weirdness. I think I need to fast for a week.
I freaking hate the society standard that the guy has to pursue the girl...I think more girls should ask guys out on dates....hahaha - and no ladies I dont wanna go out on a date; unless you live near me, your old enough to drink alcohol (by USA laws - 21 ), are hot, and have some cool ability like telekinesis or something, ohhh and you have to like big hairy men - hahaha
You know what really gets my goat? When my Super-Awesomeness collides with my Mega-Awesomeness and then i'm left with a big Awesome-Nova. Takes forever to get out of the carpet, I'll tell you what.
lol. Ok, I guess what really gets me is people who go around claiming they're spiritual. Like everywhere they go, and to everyone they meet, they pretty much start the introduction with "I'm a very spiritual person." I mean who are they trying to convince? Us? Or themselves? I mean I'm all for people being spiritual but doesn't spirituality include things like the ability to remain humble and to be yourself.
Most so-called spiritualists jump on these bandwagons and just go along with whatever the latest book or video tells them to. It's sad and kinda scary. It's like they use spirituality for a bragging right. I'll be the first to say, I'm interested in spirituality, but I would never under any circumstances claim to be a very spiritual person. It just doesn't sit right with me. Seems a little arrogant or egocentric to me.
my beef is how, when someone dies everyone starts saying well i want this and i want that, its not about what you want its about what is going on and whats going to happen. my grandmother died on oct 15 and my dad just died on the 25 and my family are being greedy little pukes, like when my grandma died befor she was even in the ground, my uncle and his wife and kids went thrue everything and took her laptop,jewelery and alot of other stuff, didnt even ask my granfather what he wanted to do, just took it thats what pisses me off, i just dont understand why ppl have to be like that and why they just cant be happy that they arent hurting anymore and happy where ever they may be, its just stupid i dont even know if im going to be able to go to his funeral its in ga and im in tx ok well im going to shut up now.....lol
I guess the thing that fucks me off most is probably when my so called 'friends' screw me over. That's the thing that really gets me and bad. I'll block out and put my guard up to them and all sorts.
When you become true friends with someone, they end up being your family.
I get annoyed at the dumbass people out there, but I get annoyed and irritated at the ignorance, and it won't bother me as much as it would a friend hurting me.
You know what, it sounds pretty fair to feel that way to me Ma. And it does hurt and leaves some serious scars cause that kind of hurt is hard to just let go of, you can cover it but letting go is something else. I try putting the walls up too but my best option is to keep myself busy and I am not sitting able to think too deep about things so called friends have done to me...Gawd it sucks I know, ok am really feeling it now...And NO you are NOT an IDIOT for having faith in someone or helping someone who you call a friend, if we stopped helping people we would be really done for but yea I just wanted you to know that the pain your feeling will get a little easier and you'll find that strength as always *smiles* BIG HUGZ* Kia Kaha!
:) Well I think it's the fact that you end up trusting in the person so much. You let them into your soul, basically. You tell them your secrets, you confide in them. And then they take a really long sword and they do their fancy wave it around action and totally fucking stab you in the back with it lol
See, I'm close with all you guys, so you know how hard it is for me to trust people.
lol damn, you shoulda been there for the times I tore Marius up. lol
And that's another thing, a true friend will always love ya even when you give them growlings. lol
and I noticed, only three of you (Marius, Psi, Leonie) have put up with me growling you and I've given you people some massive growlings too... guess that's why I love you guys eh? cos I don't see any other reason why I should.
lol jk.
Phoenix is not included. He gets 'different' type of growling.
But really, I was thinking, maybe I should do what Phoenix told me to do when a friend hurts me....
He said "think to yourself, babe. Think 'it's alright, I forgive them because it's not their fault that they're retarded''
lol
now you know one of the reasons I love my Phoenix, eh.
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